Hello d00ds.
I wanted to bump down my violent journal.. to make another violent one! Actually this is just going to be a nice little update on my personal life for all those creepers out there!
Okay so.. The past week or so has been quite event filled.. SO PREPARE YOURSELF. Because I've been told that I really suck at telling stories and I might end up confusing you and... that wont be very good. ]:
SO.

Lets roll back to Sunday, June 7. That was the night of the Carnival, and the night that I had a little reunion / played a game of catch-up with my ex-boyfriend Sam. And all in that night he asked me out and we started dating etc. And that night was a lot of fun, but I was skeptical of the relationship.
Now that that is established lets truck forward to Friday, June 19. (all this time Sam and I are having a good relationship and chatting and becoming pretty attached to each other (or so I thought). That night, I got a text from one of my friends named Lee, who happened to be at the same place as Sam was. Lee had snapped a picture of Sam holding hands with another girl and sent it to me. When I called Lee, he explained to me that Sam was hanging all over this girl etc. So I begin to get a little worried, and a couple of days pass and then my little brother Mitch, decides to take matters into his own hands and call Sam himself. When he calls Sam, he asks him questions like "So..what were you doing holding hands with another girl when you have a girlfriend?" and chatted with him. Sam's excuse was that it was his ex and she just needed someone to talk to.
So Friday, June 26, comes along, and I go skating (roller blading) where Sam normally hangs out to talk to him about what had happened with his ex etc. (by now I am fully convinced he was cheating on me with her, and I was a little bit ticked, and I was planning on breaking up with him that night if nothing could be worked out.) So anyway, I get to the skating rink to find that NONE of my usual friends that hang out there are there. Its just me, and Sam is there skating, with a small group of girls dancing all over him and stuff. SO. I begin to skate under the assumption hes going to come up to and talk to me, but 2 or so hours pass and he hasnt said a word and has begun to shun me and began to hide himself wearing a hood on his jacket. I was also shaking really badly, realizing that this will be easier said than done.
My friend Kelbi calls me to check on me (since she knew what I was going to do) and I went into the story about how he wasnt talk to me etc. And she has me hand off the phone to this girl who happens to be at the skating rink. Kelbi tells the girl whats going on, and the girl goes over to Sam and talks to him asking him why he isnt talking to me etc. She then comes back to me saying "He said that he broke up with you a week ago, when his dad said you guys could no longer talk." (let me explain what he meant. A week before that, my little brother thought it would be funny to take my phone from me and text Sam saying "I have crabs." which is an untrue statement. However, Sam's dad had his phone at the time and was the one that recieved the text, and then texted me back saying 'stay away from my son' I then proceeded to explain to him what had happened but I never got a reply. But Sam had never messaged me on facebook, called me or anything telling me we were breaking up after that night. in fact we actually talked on the phone after that night and said I love you etc.) I hear this and am immediately shocked. I then begin trying to find some kind of friend to come be with me because this will be a lot harder than I originally planned.
Right on cue, Sam's best friend, Connor texts me asking how I was etc. So I told him the story and he decides to come up and be with me. In under 10 minutes, Connor arrives and gives me a hug, and tries to get my mind off things. We begin to skate and hes already making me laugh and smile by singing to me and dancing with me and holding hands with me etc. I so badly wanted to talk to Sam, just to have some closure and to have some of my question answered, but even though Connor is his best friend and could make that happen, it was in Sams best interests not to talk.. (he has no balls lol.)
So the last song comes along and I end up crying, and Connor ends up just hugging me the whole time. (the whole time Connor and I were skating Sam was jealous / upset with us as hell, you could just tell by the look on his face and staring at us etc.)

I go home with the unsatisfactory feeling of not talking to Sam, but I realized that the whole time we dated he was pretty much a jerk, and I got over him incredibly quickly.

Connor and I still talk, and on June 30, he and I were talking on the phone and I had found out from him that Sam had been cheating on me the whole time. (Connor didnt tell me this sooner because he didnt know Sam and I were dating up until the night he came to comfort me.) He told me that even the night that Sam asked me out, once he left the carnival he was making out with another girl etc.

I was so furious, and still kind of am. I want to T.P. his house or something. Idk Ill figure something out ahahaha..

oh well, being pretty good friends with his best friend has a lot of benefits, especially when Sam told me that he hates it when Connor and I hang out. hehe.


Umm. But after that, on Tuesday I walked a good 6 miles with a group of my guy friends, and went on a few adventures to the creek and tried to catch a frog but failed cause those damn things swim too fast for my slow mind.

And on Wednesday I went to work (volunteer work) at the hospital my mom works at, and I had a lot of fun and met one of my new co-workers. But I realized how emotional working there with the residents (elderly) really is. One of my favorite residents is a man, lets call him Bob since I cant say names. Well, Bob has dementia and with that he has what some people refer to as 'Word Salad' which means his speech is very unorganized. For instance: If Bob is thinking "Its hot outside. I need a drink. Whats for lunch. I cant Find my watch. There are kids." Then he will end up saying something like "Drink. Find lunch. hot watch. Kids.. lunch..." Its really sad but its neat to watch his day play out and see what he means. But there are moments where he is there mentally, like I will smile at him and he will smile back and wink or something. Even though I cant communicate effectively with him, I find myself always sitting near him and gravitating towards him. Ive developed a love for him and its incredibly saddening to know that that hospital will probably be his last home..

IDK. Its a sad and happy place at the same time, but it is really a life-changing experience, and I recommend volunteer work with the elderly. It is a lot more interesting than it may sound, and you can end up impacting someones life greatly.


But yes, last month / this month have been VERY eventful, and I am having a very nice summer so far. Also, happy early 4th of July for my other fellow Yankees. [: So I thought I would update you a little on the dramas and ... fun I've been having. And Ill write again when I remember I have the power to change my journal.