Hey Loves, I thought I'd let you all know that I have a new account. . I'd appreciate it if you guys would follow me over to that account. <3
Reasons for moving: Like last time, I've just grown tired of this username, however I will keep this account, and the art up just for a portfolio sake.
In case you happen to miss this journal, I'll comment on my watchers' pages to inform you.
Thanks for the cooperation. <3

I fucking love chickens.

I feel like updating my journal. Even though none of you hoes read it. (only kidding.)

Well.. the topic on my mind this fine evening is how much I'm considering just leaving dA. or just stop uploading art period. No one comments, no one favs, no one pays attention to anything I do, so I dont really see the point in having a dA. However, I could never leave dA because I like the portfolio aspect of it. But god. this makes me angry, especially because I've been trying my hardest to comment as much as I can.

(Yes that probably sounds like a selfish rant, but the feedback and comments are the main reason I joined dA, or even started drawing.)

As far as school goes, it hasnt been the best (academically). I already have an F in advanced history, and a C in Geometry. Baw.

Today was a good day, up until I accidentally shot my brother's friend in the face point blank with a powerful air-soft pistol. I thought it was on safety and thought I would spook him by pulling the trigger next to his face, and POW. I hit him in side of the face between his temple and jaw. He could hardly walk straight. I feel horrible..

However, the love-life has been doing a lot better.. I met a guy and we've been talking a lot, and I told him I like him and he likes me and all that junk. [:
Hes a nice guy but sometimes I'm worried that I'm just one of many girls that he talks to like this..
I got my first kiss from this wonderful boy, hehe.


Uh.. Finally getting out of this huge artblock that's been in my path.. I've really been wanting to do an effort filled picture for quite a bit now, I just dont know what of.

Do you ever wish you could just go back in time and re-live the innocent days of your childhood? I do all the time.. I miss the days where evil never existed in the world around me, only on T.V.. I miss my imagination, the ability for me to pretend I'm something that I'm not. I miss the days that everything was simple, and people just seemed to love each other.. Everything was interesting, new and adventurous. Sometimes I just want to go back to being a kid, with no worries..

Well, this has been a depressing journal. lol. How are you?

Dont you just love those good old times when you're with a friend or sibling and its late at night and you both get slap happy and everything becomes HILARIOUS? .. me too.

Well I was with my brother Mitch(12) in our Theatre, and it was pretty late and we were both slap happy. Well Mitch was in the middle of texting when he asked me "....What does CF mean?" I figured it was something someone sent him in a text, so I replied "Uh...what context is it used in?" and he says "like....There's a CF over there..." and I said "I.. have no idea." And then he says "It means..Catfish." and for some reason it was HILARIOUS and we were laughing realllly hard. Just because of the randomness of the word "Catfish."
Good times...

Summer is ending for me.. this is the second to last day of summer. Ewwww..
But my summer has been filled with fun and sleep and laughter so I think that makes up for it.
Like last night, for instance, My neighbor Shawn and his friend John John came over to our house to watch the Unborn in our theatre. Once the movie was done we all got hyper and turned on the song "Single Ladies" by Beyonce, and started to try to do the choreography from the music video. We failed.
After that, I took the two boys into my bathroom and I covered their faces with my eyeshadow, eyeliner, lipstick and mascara, and gave them these ridiculous make overs, and then I dressed up Shawn as a pirate, John John as a Rastafarian, and I sent them out onto a busy street behind my house to pole dance on the street lights while I watched. It was priceless.

I also went to Worlds Of Fun (Kansas City) a few weeks ago with Mitch, Shawn, and my other friend Moose. We had a blast, especially when Mitch, Shawn and I decided to conquer our fears and go on a ride there called the RipCord (a free fall bungee jump thing that goes up over 180 ft.) It was probably the scariest / craziest thing I've ever done. Going up was the hardest part, I was squeezing the life out of Shawn's arm, and Mitch was the one who was supposed to pull the cord to let us fall. While you're going up, all you see is the lake below you, and some sharp rocks. Then when we finally reach the 180+ peak, and the operator says "3...2...1..FLY." my heart jumped lol. The first few seconds of the drop are a complete nose dive, and it seems to go in slow motion. But when you finally transition back into the air it becomes less scary and more fun, and it feels like you're flying.
When we got off all of our knees were shaking and I could hardly stand hahaha.

Uhh.. what else has been happenin'....

Oh we've been checkin out first cars for me, and we're thinking about a White Mazda RX-8, or a Black Chevy Cobalt. Both seemed like pretty sweet cars, especially for a first car. I'm really diggin' the RX-8 but chances are I'll probably end up with a hand-me-down car from the family. lol.

Eww I finally got my schedule for Sophmore year woooohooo. and I think I'm going to shoot myself D:
I have 3 block classes in a row (For those who dont know, block classes are 2 hour long classes that meet every other day.) which means I will have only 4 classes a day. Its going to feel like the longest days of my lifeeeee ]:
I just hope that cute boy ends up in one of my classes.. cause if he does I'll definitely try to get to know him and all that junk but chances are, that probably wont happen.

Oh I'm still debating on putting a photo of myself up here on dA, would you like to see one? (if you havent already lol.)

Thank you for reading! <3

Hey dudes.

I think its time to bump down all that ugly drama off of my page because epically owned Sam in a small argument and its finally all over, but I'm not going to go into that because its such a long story I'll shoot myself half way through it. Plus I've got Brandon (new lover lol), so I dont need to dwell on that shit.

Anyway lets get down to business ]:< .. of me ranting on about my boring life and all that good stuff to keep you entertained. As you can see I've been on fire with these refs lately.. I probably wont be submitting any super-effort-work until these are all finished. And while I'm talking about this I'll write myself a little to-do list.

1. Calvin (in progress, it should be submitted soon)
2. Tide
3. Decide if I want to keep Geeoh or not, and if so then a new ref.
4. Andrew askdfj god he needs a new one so badly.
5. Addison
6. Devon

Oh in case you're wondering, the title to this journal has to do with a lot of racist / prejudice comments and jokes I've been hearing from my brother, friends, and family members lol. Its nothing new but lately there seems to suddenly be a lot more. So whenever someone says something like that I always scream THATS RACIST in public areas to see how many mean looks they get lol.

This also brings me to my next topic. THE CRUSHING OF MY DREAMSSSSS.

Today I was telling my parents about how one of my dreams is to go to a Chingy concert and meet him etc etc, and an N*E*R*D concert and meet them right? And my dad tells me that I will never be going to any kind of rap concert. So I asked him why and he was like well you'd be the only white person there blah blah blah, and that theres drugs and weapons there and he doesnt want me to get hurt etc. Sure I understand him not wanting me to get hurt but THIS SUCKS. I've wanted to meet Chingy for like 2-3 years now. My parents told me I could happily go to a concert when I'm an adult, but he may not even be rapping anymore by then. Its lame. But whatever, Ill find some way to meet him. ]: </3

Oh on another note, I was thinking about putting a picture of myself in my scraps / gallery so that you guys can see me lol, even though some of you already know what I look like. What do you think?


BY THE WAY. Commissions for me are still open, should anyone ever become interested. Just note me for details. They're pretty cheap since I'm just starting out asdfkj.

But..yeah thats all I really have to talk about this time.
Thanks for reading!